++++ Nobody likes a Quiter+++++
Except the friends and family of a real Alcoholic.
It just so happens, i am a REAL alcoholic. My personal description is well noted in the first 178 pages of the Big Book of AA. Tons of misconceptions about alocoholism out there and all the opinions in the world mean dick except for yours! (All respect to our firends that want to help).
I was a happy drinker, i did it all my life and got quite good at it. I wasnt a black out drinker, or the guy that drank until sickness. I didnt have to wake up with booze to stop the shakes, nor did i have seizures or any on set illnesses from drinking. But i came to find out that all the things that i didnt like about my self was from booze. I used booze & drugs to hide from the shyte that i couldnt deal with head on.... like life, death, realtionships, sadness, happiness, and so on. If things went into the toilet, i drank. If things were great, I drank. Drinking kept me from facing truths about myself & others hence burying them deep inside. I found out after i sobered up and got into AA and started to learn about my "ism", that i was a text book "Liar, Cheat, & Theif! Everytime i lied about something, or didnt disclose the real truth, I stuffed that crap in this imaginary golf bag that i carried around. Whiskey Man was the only dude that could help me carry that bag around. In AA I learned how to empty that bag, set my selfishness aside, and live differently so i didnt have to carry things with me any more. \
Imagine a secret that you have held for years. You are the only one that knows this secret and the thought of it getting out is devastating. Because of the severity of this secret, you are convinced that if the truth got out, life would be over as you know it. maybe its a wife thing, or a work thing, or a best friend thing. Once you are able to see things clearer, and let this secret out, the weight of the world will be lifted off your shoulders. Once you cop to your shortcomings and deal with the truth, it is no longer yours to carry. Now it is on whom ever this imaginary secret is really about. You just took away one more reason to drink, one more reason to Lie, and your concience is clear.
I can go on for days, but i wont. If your boat is broken I am sure we can all give you good solid advice how to fix it, but when it comes to matters of the first person, only one can make a decision to do what it takes, the best we as friends can do is give you our truth & experiences and let you choose what path YOU want to take.
PM me if you want to talk brother, i have nothing to sell!
Charley
